I tried my best. It's all up to you whether you wanna appreciate it or not.

I hate to pretend. Pretend as if nothing had happened, pretend as if i don't know anything when i know every single bit, acting as if everything's okay. You know how much those feeling hurts? Put yourself in my shoes and imagine what if you were me?

Well, i couldn't care much now. Had a 15 mins talk with siyan this morning. Thanks for being my listening ear and being there for me when i needed someone to talk to so badly. Almost cried out halfway talking to her. But of course, i hold on my tears. :(

Back to class after lunch break. The guys kept on bullying me. :( At least i feel much more btr. Know why? because it stops me from thinking that much. :( i couldn't control my tears. Tears rolled down during lesson time. I closed my eyes and pretended that i'm sleeping. And, i fell asleep :/

Lot 1 for dinner with Ven, Xp and Chris. Bought all my stuffs that i needed. 30 bucks gone. ): Trained home all alone by myself. Reflect about it. Thinking that, 'Am i not that good enough?' 'Why do i have to feel this way?' 'What should i do?' I really don't know what to do now. My mind's in a mess. My mind's running wild. My heart's popping out.

I'm sick of this life. Sick of living in this world. Sick of having so much problems and hiding myself. Maybe i shouldn't even exist in this world. I hate the world. Kill me, please.